no one deserves it

tonight is happy. i'm working with danielle (puff diddy) which is always a ton of fun. and there's a girl here...

last week i was working a closing shift when, to my dismay, i found that emily was camped out in the front room. i ignored her but was hoping for some sort of olive branch anyway, a glance or a word... anything. she passed by me twice without looking although god knows that was conscious because i glanced her glancing when i would wander around the main room and she was in her chair in the front. and i'd walk around in a large arc on purpose just to spy an image of her over there. it's been a long time, that's all. they hadn't left when we closed, so i got danielle to go tell them to leave. i lay in the dark back room on a couch until i heard the door shut.

this week it's the opposite. this girl i've never met before (but i want to, oh so badly). i saw her first at a basketball game months ago and had to ask the kids-that-know-kids near me if they'd ever seen her before. none had. we were unique, it seemed, the two of us. she was my special little lost memory. ever since then i've seen her everywhere... walking around campus, in the gym, at seize the quad, now in the coffee shop. she's a pretty girl, a face like one i haven't seen before. great looking body to boot. i asked danielle about her, just wanting to tell her about this situation. she told me the girl used to come in here a lot and that she thought she was in an art class with a friend of ours. so she frequents my coffee shop, goes to the gym, and does art. sounds better and better every second. like georgia girl and finding out she didn't just get drunk and dance with me, she read for pleasure as well.

she's purple to me (can i tell you that you are the purple in me?). i think she was wearing a purple scarf the first time i saw her. blue plaid shirt flannel shirt tonight and jeans without a belt. i wish she'd buy something. i want to get her name off her card and start a conversation. see if it could be accomplished without me coming off creepy or too forward. tradition dictates that she lives in florida and is dating a boy in boston... just for good measure. but i don't know any of that yet ;)

she has a beautiful movement about her. when in the gym, i found her first on the treadmill, then over by the weights sections doing a bit of resistance. she just floats around, alone but very content, almost smiling in my memories.

but i don't know who she is and i don't know how to meet her and i don't know when or where i'll see her again. i can only hope it's soon.